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January 31, 2005



these few days i suddenly very low in mood. very wan to scold ppl. i cant stay hm. stay hm i xiang alot things.

OUTING OUTING OUTING OUTING OUTING OUTING mus go out!!!!

moody ghost created. create at the wrong timing. dunno when go. time is not rite lar.

CONCENTRATED!!!!!!!!

//

smallville is out again!!! i very happy. waited long weeks show now out again i happy. maybe its time. i think the time is coming. mus wait for the rite time den act. mus be confident.

\\ended.


1:42 AM.
January 29, 2005

Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!! Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!! Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!! Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!! Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!! Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!! Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!! Happy Birthday // JEAN!!!!!!

think u now in japan FUN FUN! SONG SONG.

ka wah eeee nehhhhhhh!!!! bring all ur fren dwn for holidays!!!!! mos burger on ME!!!

22th// hope u win $$ give me $$.

1:34 AM.
January 28, 2005

Happy birthday JOHNATHON!!!!!! Happy birthday JOHNATHON!!!!!! Happy birthday JOHNATHON!!!!!! Happy birthday JOHNATHON!!!!!! Happy birthday JOHNATHON!!!!!! Happy birthday JOHNATHON!!!!!!

20th// hope u win $$ give me $$.

1:30 AM.
January 26, 2005

time changes a person?

contradicting issue.

time is always moving,
never stop human is also moving, cant stop,
cant lose surrouding changes,
human try to adapt to the new change so human changes,
time is just to accompany human.

human slowly changes without knowing.

change the surrounding back,
enviorment back human maybe the same.

we all have a base,
a foundation that i think can never be change.

mel// she wrote.

2:10 AM.

HAPPYHAPPY HAPPYHAPPY HAPPYHAPPY
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY HAPPYHAPPY HAPPY
HAPPYHAPPY HAPPYHAPPY

BIRTHDAYBIRTHDAY BIRTHDAYBIRTHDAY
BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY
BIRTHDAYBIRTHDAY BIRTHDAYBIRTHDAY
BIRTHDAYBIRTHDAY

TERENCE!!!!!
TERENCE!!!!!TERENCE !!!!!TERENCE!!!!!
TERENCE!!!!! TERENCE!!!!!
TERENCE!!!!! TERENCE!!!!!TERENCE!!!!!
TERENCE!!!!!TERENCE!!!!!
TERENCE!!!!!TERENCE!!!!!

20th// hope u every day win $$ give me $$.

12:11 AM.
January 25, 2005

500% on fire after sch.

hot sun 20% added.

alot alot alot IBP there, 288% added.

my bks still at the place i hide in library, 10% take away.

shop eat alone, 10000% added.

slack, 20% take away.

go every levis look for my size shirt. (THIS VERY I VERY ANGRY!!!!!I NV BUY LAST WK!!) 120% added x 2 = 240%.

farewell dinner, 1234% take away//

end of today, go count urself.







11:46 PM.

i tell Story..//

They have been married for two years. He loves

literature and often posts his work on the net, but
nobody ever reads them. He is also into
photography and he handles their wedding photos.
He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She
has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is
a gentleman and always gives in to her.
Today, she's being willful again.

Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my
friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay."

Him: "I don't have time that day."

Her: "Humph!"

Him: "Huh?"

Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels,
and you will have all the time you need."

Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my
work some day."

Her: "Humph! I don't care, you'll have to do it for
her!"

Him: "No."

Her: "Just this once?"

Him: "No."

Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final
warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or
else..."

First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom,
computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi... Except the
double bed, to show her "benevolence".

Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't
mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and removed
everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek
any external help, and you bear the
consequences."

He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs
for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She
doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in,
whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, night. On the bed. He's lying on the bed,
looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking
to the other side.

Him: "We need to talk."

Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."

Him: "It's something very important."

She remains silent.

Him: "Let's get a divorce."

She did not believe her ears.

Him: "I got to know a girl."

She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she
held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her
eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his
chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's
the only place she didn't go through yesterday.
How careless.

Him: "She's a nice girl."

Her tears fell.

Him: "She has a good personality too."

She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of
some other girl close to his heart.

Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my
pursue for literature after we got married."

She's very jealous because she said the same
thing in the past.

Him: "She loves me truly."

She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"

Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do
something that I don't want to do."

She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.

Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for
her?"

Her: "...!"

He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a
total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning
slap on his face.

He sighs. She cries.

He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls
her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the
light, and sits up. He's asleep. She lost sleep. She
regrets treating him the way she treated him.

She cried again, and thought about a lot of things.
She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a
intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push
him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants
to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and
she wanted to laugh.

It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her.
She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

-----
"You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person
perfectly."

3:52 AM.

Chance or Choice?

When we meet the right person to love, when we're

at
the right place at the right time, that's CHANCE.
When
you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a
CHOICE. That's CHANCE. Being caught up in a
moment
(and there are a lot of couples who get together
because of this) is not a CHOICE. That's also a
CHANCE.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When
will
you take that infatuation, that crush, that
mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's
when
all sanity goes back, you sit down and
contemplate
whether you want to make this into a concrete
relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults,
that's not a CHANCE. That's CHOICE. When you
choose to
be with a person, no matter what, that's CHOICE.
Even
if you know there are many people out there who
are
more attractive, smarter, and richer than your
mate,
and yet, you decide to love your mate just the
same,
that's CHOICE.

Infatuation, crushes, and attraction come to us by
CHANCE. But true love that lasts is truly a
CHOICE. A
CHOICE that we make. Regarding soulmates,
there's a
beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about
this: "Fate brings you together, but it's still up to
you to make it happen." I believe that soulmates
do
exist, that there is truly someone made for you.
But
it's still up to you to make the CHOICE if you're
going to do something about it or not.

We may meet our soulmates by CHANCE, but
loving and
staying with our soulmate is still a CHOICE we
have to
make. We came to the world not by finding
someone
perfect to love, BUT to learn how to love an
imperfect
person perfectly.

3:48 AM.

I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!
I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!! I WAN TO COMPLAIN!!!!!!!!!


i wan to brain wash.

smallville #11 start showing again on 26th. YEAH!!! i long waited. time to d/////l.

cant wait.

2:47 AM.

life isnt the same any more.

since this sem start. i feel not rite. not the same anymore.

not the same anymore.
not the same anymore.
not the same anymore.
not the same anymore.
not the same anymore.
not the same anymore.

till now its still changing and changing. change not for gd but to me for bad.

timetable all nv same time all nv meet. this time all wanna meet its very hard. i am tired and sick of it. every day go sch crap i look lec lec look me. after sch go hm. go hm is the worst. everytime walk alone to ps take mrt. but dun feel like take so fast. walk untill orchard take bus or mrt. walking alone is nice. can think alot of things. but for so many days untill i very sian. i dunno next time walk where. town so small one streeth walk finish. next i'll count how many step i took to walk to orchard. i nv try b4. i rather dun go sch whole day or stay in cls whole day. go hm is like night mare to me. go town walk walk no $ buy. very gian.

ARGHHHHH...

all the ghost i created all dunno go where. i guess its time i think thru again. how to create more GUI!. this is the time i recompile myself. wats new come out i not sure. its a gd period. seldom got this period.

no one understand.

byebye//


2:31 AM.
January 23, 2005

Evanescence
//missing

Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
Maybe some day you'll look up
And barely consious you'll say to no one
Isn't something missing?

You won't cry for my absence I know
You forgot me long ago
Am i that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't something missing?
isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me not now
Though I'd die to know you loved me
I'm all alone
isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out
"Isn't something missing?"
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me.. Not now
Though I'd die to know you loved me
I'm all alone
isn't someone missing me?


And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there
isn't something missing? isn't something....

Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me not now
though I'd die to know you loved me
I'm all alone
Isn't something missing
Isn't someone missing me?

6:25 PM.

ytd,



i heard the song. its someone's ringing tone. wah eh brain LUAN LUAN!
in the nite, perfect 10 played the song again. i shiok.HAHHAHAA thot the song outdated.

I BANNED THE SONG MYSELF.

project date due coming. I SCARE HISTORY WILL REPEAT>>>//



6:16 PM.
January 20, 2005

so many days nv blog.

my tagboard very quiet.

coz now i blog.


WHAT IS LIFE? // entry

this entry will delay. i need to research. very chim.
positive will come up. negative will no up.


today is 20th.

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

ANg PENG

on the 13th.

till now i haven peel new skin yet hope by chinese new yr will drop. den new luck come my way untill i wan to block oso cannot. coz i wan to be a big winner this yr.

hope later wake up will be ok. bcoz.... my eyes wanna close.

ended..//

tag me leh tmd. make my tagging flowing. i wan to see moving. move move MOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i dun have motivation.

i wan motivation to reach me goal. i can see. but faaarrrrrrrrrrrrr.

really ended...........\\

3:08 AM.
January 12, 2005

TONITE I MUS BLOG.

TITLE:

WHAT IS LIFE?// Entry.



i like ur what is life entry.



12:32 PM.
January 05, 2005

no siao siao attitude since 2005.

i got a feeling. a very strong feeling inside me tat i goin bust. i dunno wat. no no. maybe is something i some how know wat but i dun want to take out from my mouth. i wan to seal it. or i scare to face it. alot alot reason y i dunno. i dunno i............... blah blah blah.

is pain keep inside. i learn something tat can dun say out den the feeling will go away. i know i can learn it. i will master it. meanwhile, my siao siao attitude door will close for a while. seal. dun wan it to contaminated. when will open i not sure. but will reopen one day. the day when i dunnno maybe will 4ever nv open. but this is more to impossible.

and meanwhile oso, i may have super attitude prob. may be i will anyhow scold pple. coz i got attitude prob. when i scold dun soft hearted. come beat me. wake me up. coz i got attitude prob. i need to sort out my prob. list it inside me. den slowly slowly solve it. once i solve it, u all will know. i big change. very big change. hhahaaaahaha... i oso dunno when izzit. prob will always come solve come solve.

recent yrs, i learn something. learn how to scold more bad words. learn how to be more anti social. learn how to be more sad sad. learn how to let ppl beat. learn how to endure the pain. learn how to accept the fuck face pple give. learn how to accept pple fuck up attitudes. learn how to accept pple bad words shoot on my face. and even learn how to accept india show my middle finger.

i grow more strong. MUAHHAHHAA. kick!

i think it time tat something mus change. change wat dun ask me. see change wat will solve more prob i change tat//.

today write untill like tat. if can i write more next time. dunno wat i say den next time no need come read liao. coz i oso dunno wat i am saying. after posting i read den see wat i wrote. mauhahahhaah!!! very fun.

ENDED//.

ps: superman on leave.

1:27 AM.
January 03, 2005

TODAY, is sch nafa open collected $$ day.

cls start @ 1.30.

1/1/2005.

chalet at sentosa coasta sand.

pple come: jian lafone john kok prada alvin tracy larvina adeline and lim bei.

NICE.

waterrubypolo @ nite. GDGD.

but no sun no peel old skin for new skin for new yr.DISAPPOINTED.

i got a unspeakable feeling for today sch open.




entry end//.

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